Wednesday, December 23, 2009

N.O.S.E chicken!

i had running nose and sneezing badly while typing for this entry.i guess due to belacan i ate for my dinner.okeh i felt like to take off my nose and put it on the table for a while until i finished typing for this post. very itchy.such an asshole writing about your own jerk..
oh my GOD
damn! ITCHY...
at the same time here come my sister snoring like hell.aiyoo feeling like wanna kick her ass right now..rhythmic snore..i don't know what song she sang in her dreams..gosh i get annoyed almost for everything starting with my nose blocked,sneeze.her snore..argggggh!..
pissed off..erk
sorry coz i get annoyed easily today..and i know this entry also makes people annoyed at me.yeah i cant handle it when it comes to my nose..3 annoyed here..and now i don't know what i wanna write about in my blog except grumbling and complaining..lost my idea...

p/s: suddenly i laughed all alone when my mind captured and recap this macho douchebag sneezing and farting at the same time and act like nothing at the bus stop.what's more? a girl laughing non stop and then fart and laugh

tomorrow agenda:

  • hang out with Nadya at pavillion in the afternoon..ok started to hate pavillion coz i think i went there for more than 5 times in these 2 weeks.but should say nothing coz i know she miss her baby fik..ROFL..
  • before that need to wake her up coz she will tido balik after i kejot..ya i become your temporary clock and your mum since your mum's not around..hahaha..
  • morning-housechores as usual.OK LAH WATEVER LAH..I'M SO TIRED LAH..
  • NOW?sleep little baby..

ok updated!


Friday, December 11, 2009

life isn't beautiful as it was....

hello people...
ok again still not sleepy..still frustrated..still feelin terribly shocked..

i know im not okay..
i know im in my own world
people doesnt care..
yes i repeat it again they dont even care!
they never had that same kind of feelin'
some people make my life become worst day by day...
when you aren't there, i fell like im losing
but when you are there,it doesnt feel like i want you..freaking annoyed.
empty.doesnt make sense at all..
do i make the right decision or could be a mistake?
should mylife always evolve around you??till when..

ok enough..i just hate being myself.mylife and my faith..
then, a good life is the main it?
i think God just really want to tease on me..or really wanna make me realized that i just being too much and wonder He gave me these kind of life results..
or maybe the good life is inspired by love and guided by need to be balance.which i don't even have both..

"Love life and life will love you back. Love people and they will love you back"

misery bell
thank you for listening...

Thursday, December 3, 2009

wondering in wonder mind

sometimes the truth is lying...
do i need to say the truth all the time??
i hate you!!
or most likely to be
 i love you..

sometimes its hard to say it
doesnt mean i have no sensitivity..
maybe i'm just too radical and a lil bit emotional
perhaps i'm not good but i'm hoping to be better..

dear ___,
i'm sorry
i knw sorry seem to be the hardest word...

am i too emotional??


p/s: i know sadis is my middle name and i thought of changing it to JIWANG anak muda..pergh giler panjang nama about penangan gadis sunyi??lain macam lak..semata2 entry ni nak tukar nama..

xpela stick to SADIS!

Wednesday, November 25, 2009


Hello again buddies,
 just wandering around the web and spotted:
gaga in her weird dress..hahaha..erm pastu kan my bro cakap this gaga kan sebenarnya lelaki..apakah??

i bet all the hello kitty's are from her fans....=p

is lady gaga is a fashionista or one of the fashion victim??just look at all the fugly props she wear..hahaha..kesian betol la ini orang...i think she really mean it when she sing this song..
"fashion put it all on me, Don't you want to see these clothes on me"...owh tidak..saya xmahu.Tongue Emoticons

p/s: on how much i hate those clothes she wears yet still love her song damn much!Happy Emoticons

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

insomnia attack

Lagi sekali aku post this entry at the late2 night or dawn la senang citer..orang lain dok berselimut tidur dengan nyenyak nyer and i was typing for this entry sebab xboleh nak tidur..aku da puas membaca and mengeja tapi xmau gak macam mana??this insomnia really2 killing me softly.yesterday it was fine and today i can't sleep.and maybe it will be last for about two or three days.aku dah tido tapi bangun balik because i feeling like my mind decided to stay on, despite the fact that I was exhausted beyond words. weh aku penat weh.kenapa otak aku ni xreti nak tido.its ok if in the exam mood la since i can't recharge my batteries because struggling for my papers.bila ade gap baru dapat tido.if time2 tue dia nak datang penyakit ni aku tengah aku betul2 nak tidur xmau plak die..

I had an experience when i was at age 6 if i'm not mistaken kan, i had this penyakit at the very2 first time.aku macam da kena sampuk wei xboleh nak tidur and my mum was so angry that she scolded me without knowing that i had this insomnia..yelah orang lain tidur aku plak berjaga..lampu tutup and aku plak terlalu kuat berimaginasi and there come those freaking stories twinkling2 in my brain..pastu sebab terlampau takut menjerit2 dalam mum said that she asked me to relax, put my feet up and lay back and definitely i can fall asleep.but she was totally wrong. sebab dah kene marah baru aku tidur...hahahaha..

herm..when i had too much pressures,stress and tidur sesuka hati here come this illness..about a month ago, during my second test of corporate finance, my brain stop functioning and i felt my head so dizzy that i cant think was too cold plak dalam class(everyday shivering in class kot.)aku rase macam nak pitam and i submitted my paper and blah je.there some lubang2 la dalam kertas soklan tu.yang aku pelik bin ajaib nyer i got the highest mark in class..hahahaha(perasan lebeyh padahal beza dengan orang lain 2-3 point je). 

so if you guys pun penah had experinece like me jom check what should you do and dont's:
  1. Get up at the same time each day (checked)
  2. Avoid caffeine, alcohol, and tobacco (checked)
  3. Exercise (nope)
  4. Do not go to bed hungry (ptutla slalu susah nak tidur)
  5. Do not worry right before bed (kadang2)
  6. Do not nap during the day. (always)
  7. Use the bed only for sleeping, not for watching the evening news, paying bills, reading exciting books, etc. (katil serbaguna.hihi)
  8. Adjust the environment in the room (lights, temperature, noise, etc.) (checked)
new info: 
psychological problems lead to insomnia
  • anxiety
  • stress
  • depression
  • schizophrenia
  • mania(bipolar disorder)
takut jugak aku dengar...
lepas ni mesti strictly buat therapy bagai nih..taknak aku jadi macam nih hari2...hari tue 2 hari x tidur pon rase macam mayat idop je.
mau pengsan.

ok cukuplah kot.aku da penat menaip..hihi...see ya...

Monday, November 9, 2009

coz i am sick of love song!!!

as i lay dying without idiot!!
i am so sick of crying in the shower just because of you..the shower is more like house of my tears like if i tadah the tears it can build a kuil for you!! 
kau ingt air mata aku nie bole recycle2 balik ke??
n why those radio nie suka sangat pasang lagu jiwang2 tgh2 malam..

"da xde lagu lain ke hah? aku ni tadah je dengar lagu2 korang pasang..meh cni aku yang tolong putarkan lagu ye...saya putar besar2.."  
(tbe2 nak gelak plak...ingat nih roda impian ke ape?hahahaha) si bongok nih...

kesimpulannya aku sekarang mengalami simptom2 jiwa kacau.
p/s: xpe jom kite layan video ni kejap..aku yang mcam ni pun bantai gelak tengok video bongok nih...hahaha